I am sorry for the harsh title. But please don’t cover up things I already know about my life and how it was back then. So I don’t know need no sugar coating or anything.

I wasn’t well liked in high school or anytime in my life. Because my beliefs, and that I didn’t have the greatest family life. But I know that and don’t need you to cover it up or tell me that people missed me.

I am not that kind of person that people would miss and that people would even care about. I learned that a long time ago.

But I know there is one that I never have to lie to and He knows my heart and that one is Jesus. He loves and misses me when I don’t talk to Him and share my worries and disbeliefs with. He listens and gives me answers some may not be what I want to Hear at the moment and other times it is wait and good things are coming.

So when I don’t want to hear the bullshit. I want to hear praise and thank Jesus for all that he is doing for us and asking God to open our hearts of those who are trying to feed me stuff that doesn’t matter and bring my hopes up.

This sums it all up.. I am loved by the King so whatever is said that hurts He cleans it up and what ever is broken he fixes.