You have blocked me and hurt me as your mom. But, I am not sure why.

I gave what I had. I tried to give you everything that I had. I even tried to help you several times, but you turned to run back home. I even tried to put you in private school for you to have a normal childhood.

I shared Jesus with you and how I know in my heart He healed the whole in your heart. I married Dan to give you a stable home. I even let you stay for periods of time. There were no questions asked.

You asked me to be foster parent to Bo. I know it upsets you that I said no. But, you need to understand. I had no biological ties to that little boy and he had relatives that wanted him. I gave him a Christmas when I had no money and had friends help me out.

I let your Grandma raise you because we felt it was the best thing for you. Not that I wanted not to be your mom. Because, I did. You made your choice several times and did things to make me mad and angry which wasn’t my nature. But, you did it because of your grandma.

I did care about you. I cared about you a lot and did things for you. Where did you stay with Dan and me after you and Andy broke up? Who helped you get back to him?

I am unsure why you cut me out. But know I pray for you daily and reading a lot of books.. My favorite is Stop the Spiral by Jenny Allen