It seems these last few days have been days of thinking and wondering. Not sure why but then as I prayed this afternoon and chatted with my hubby for a while. We started to discover many things.

One is that we live on about 16-19 hundred dollars a month. Which is not a lot. We don’t qualify for any public assistance our medical bill are stacking up as well as other bills. We live on the bare minimum and sometimes depend on food pantries to help us out. We don’t go on vacation and when we do we go home. The last couple of years I was able to go to my companies convention but that was at the expense of us being tight and me not eating as much as I should and drinking lots and lots of water.

We were talking about what I do from home. We realized if more and more people that we showed it to got it we would be doing better instead of scraping by.  So we realized that if we managed our time and just pushed ahead that we were going to make it in the business and not look else where for help.

But hear lately with me going to networking on Thursday nights, praying and seeking God and attending worship on Saturday night which he is going to try and make it soon to prove that he can do it and also to receive prayer.

If most of you don’t know. My hubby may or may not have Parkinson’s it hasn’t been fully diagnosed yet. It has taken over a month to see the neurologist that we had to get a referral and we got a referral and the doctor we saw in December said that He had to see his original neurologist and that took time. Wasn’t sure about needing a referral so we got one and then we called and waited for them to get back to us which took like forever. So now we are waiting til the 20th of April to get a diagnosis.

We attend church on Sunday and are blessed with a great church family. We recently switch churches due to differences as well as feeling out of place. Where we go now we don’t feel like we are outsiders. The church we used to go to isn’t handicap friendly either. But the new one is.

Please again, I am not asking for pity. I am asking for prayer. I am a strong woman of God but there are times that I need to cry and just talk things over to myself and to others.

As I sat here tonight so many emotions come over me and still trying to figure out what is going to happen and all I can say is let the praise begin and let the Lord show up and things to blossom.